i know she can beat them

so, now i've been to every one of my classes so far. this semester i'm taking:
1. SCENIC PAINTING!
with dan. so i'm gonna learn a lot. but i'm going to be pushed very VERY hard. and it's gonna be hard to keep myself in check. because the class will be like workshopping with someone i was interviewing for a job with. i need to prove myself to dan. and with painting, i think i can do that!

2. history of modern theatre
my last Dr. Katie class. i believe. which will be sad. but it's gonna be fun. i always learn SO much from her class, it's just that i can never seem to retain as much as i'd like to. today we had a very brief, very unfinished conversation about early theatre history, and i forgot SO much.

3. foundations of acting
Cynthia Lammel. amazing. Acting. sucky.
i am scared shitless. acting is not my strong suit. memorizing is really difficult. depending on other people is hard for me to cope with. but zu and noah are in the class. ben and simone. joe and hannah cb. i'm not sure if that's gonna make it scarier, or if it will make it better.

4. world affairs
with some creepy 60 year old self proclaimed "liberal" who went to berkeley. cool, guy. he also said that jews aren't accepted in the east coast because there are jewish governmental and broadway conspiracies... oh and those theatre people just have the biggest heads! i don't like him. but it seems like we'll talk about interesting stuff, that the class is pretty easy as long as you go, and it fulfills my non-western grad requirement.

5. gender and communication
okay so i really actually think i'll like this class this go around. it with a new professor, whom i must address as "DR. givertz." fine. but, i may not want to be too talkative in the class.

I have a lot that i have on my plate this semester, and i imagine there will be times when i will be very stressed out. but to tell you the truth i think it might be a good thing. this semester, i have a completely different outlook. and i have a goal of staying very organized. so far, i've been able to do so, but i hope i don't get too frazzled. i've been contemplating whether or not i want to do another show besides in the blood, and i just don't think i do, this semester.

my non-theatre classes are always so weird. like, poeple who aren't musical/theatre majors are just WEIRD. they talk weird, they conduct themselves differently. but it's always good to get a break from theatre. theatre people themselves can be really obnoxious so, i always find time for my other friends.

it's not like i'll ever have a normal life.

apperently, the reason my computer is so damn loud is because i need to dust it. who would have thought?

I've had a sudden burst of motivation lately. I'm blood thirsty for opportunity and i'm not gonna stop until i get what i want. i think that my problem is and always has been that i've tried to think like the general population. I'm not like them, and i don't want to do things like regular people. either way, i'm going to be making some very difficult decisions in the near future which i am both nervous and excited for. most of the time in my experience, those two feelings go hand in hand. it's so cool to think how much my life is always changing. i'm not sure, do i like how much change i undergo?

i applied for a job to be a camp counselor for kids with disabilities at a summer camp today. how much fun would it be to hang out outside all day and be with kids with challenges. i think i'm patient enough. i just want to do things that are different. i want to spread myself in every direction i possibly can. it's not like i'll ever have a normal life.

School starts on monday. it'll be a pretty crazy semester i think, but i am going to stay focused, and ORGANIZED!